I started to worry about my A Level Results, no matter how I gonna confort myself, it somehow won calm my heart down. Reflecting back on how I performed during the A Level Examination, which is a few weeks back, it wasnt that pleasant at all. Whatever it gonna be, I hoped that everything will be well and fine, just let me enter NTU Business Faculty, and THATS ENOUGH.

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Anyway, went for my theory lessons today, so boring actually, all in Bahasa Malaysia (Malay Language) plus abit of English, but somehow, wasnt as bored as expected. can laugh a bit. Heh. Alrytes, living towards March!

Oh my god, I think I should pen down the things that had happened today. Few days back, was like surfing the net, and went to this jobstreet.com, oh my god, then I just filled in my particulars and everything, then I saw this job “Credit Control Officer”, by Citigroup, that was something interesting, so, I went on applying for that job. Because next time, I will pursue areas in Banking and Finance, so, applied. TODAY, while I was bathing, gave a shock out of my life, Citigroup called. Call me to go down to CitySquare Office Tower for interview. Was rather shocking and lost, so I agreed to go for the interview.

Reached there at about 1 plus of so, because the interview starts at around 2pm. WAHA. So shopped around.. Went back there at around 2.30pm, waited for a hours, I think because the Citigroup personnel came from KL or so, to have some big meeting or something, so, the HOD was like engaged in the meeting. A few of us were waiting, about 4 people. Hehe, was so great sia, watched how the people worked and so on, busy but very fun leh. The job is to call Singapore customers about their credit thingy, about card overlimit etcetc.

Around 4 plus, the interview started, the boss looked great, quite nice actually. Was rather panick. because this is the first time having such a big interview by big corporate. Most of the people working in the office is like much older than me, of course got young ones la. Hehe. The interview went on smoothly. The boss was like saying:”A fresh graduate, came into a big organisation like Citibank is a great first step”. Wow, it was really very motivating to hear that/ Haha. But anyways, shall wait for their replication on the application for the job. Woohoo. Hehe, looking forward in joining the team. :). Anyway, rather busy this particular month, becuase I have started pursuing for my driving liscense. Tomoro morning have to go and listen the theory, I think it gonna be something boring. Seeya!:)

BACK! Back to blog about my missing in action. (MIA). Alrytes, been relaxing myself during the holidays, true holidays actually, I have been feeling very very great during these few days. Watched “Goong”, damn nice actually, although abit slow, but its a nice show. On the 21 Nov 2006, our class 05S22 BBQ commenced. So shiok, we travelled down to Bedok Station and went straight to East Coast Park. Cycled and cycled. Very good leh, no need to think about studies, haha, although results to worry, but I had enjoyed myself. Cycled, played, kicked, ate, photos, and so on, hope that in years to come, there are such things again, haha. Shall look forward to it. Following on another day, our YJR Chalet wor, from 22 23 24. So good. Packed only in the morning itself, not that much things, but rather heavy. YJR got me ziheng ting yanling fenglin jiexin sweesan and eileen. 8 of us, met for lunch at JE and then travelled down to Pasir Ris, Downtown East Coasta Sands Resorts. For our chalet. The first day was not that fun, because I am addicted to my show “Goong” and I managed to finished the show on the night itself. Haha. Power? But anyways, the second day was rather great, we played water gun, games such as those in Guess Guess Guess and Mafia thingy. Mahjong, cards, uno stacko. Many la. The water gun was the best part ever, cos it reminds me of my childhood. Haha. I love these days. Arcading at night, blindmice at night, and we managed to stay on till about 4 am. Great? Yeah, of course. Slept till about 8 plus? By then, Sweesan and Fenglin already left, so left the six of us, and so travelled back home by cab. 3vs3. So thats the summary of these few days. Pictures:

Alrytes, shall start with yesterday, Wednesday 15 November 2006, 5.15pm. Haha, so shiok la, because after writing my last sentence with a full stop, its really a full stop to everything wor. So shiok, I really shiok shiok shiok, don know how many times to say the shiok words. Anyway, don talk about examination or whatsoever results, because I wanna numb myself with fun and laughter only. Hehe. After the EXAMS, went to KFC at JP, to have a so called group dinner, enjoying and laughter actually. But I left early, sorry gals. After which, I went back to Malaysia, in which I have lost contact for about a month. LOLx. Late at night, squeeze with the bus and straight back home. Haha, and doing my business. End the day at 1.15 am.

Wanna woke up late for today actually, but mum came knocking. Cos we going Tebrau City, Jusco! Waha, because there having great offer ! But hor, those things over there offer also not much only -,-. But managed to buy some things for myself. Hehe, not I pay ma, my mum paid. Haha. Bought two SEED formal shirt, damn nice, RM 218 in total. Haha, no la, cos got 50% offer, so I got the two only at RM 109! Damn shiok. Getting ready for Prom night actually. Trying to get some T shirts, but din managed to, because there really don have those that I wanted. So went on, walked and walked. Mum was like spent RM 700 plus and wanna go home liaox. LOLX, because mum’s wallet is becoming thinner, sad for her, but I like it. Anyway, sister bf drove us there. So good sia. Enjoying oursleves. Woohoo…

After which, went home and watch shows. A TVB show actually, “???????”, actually continued from where my sis stopped, and its reaching the last few episodes liaox. But nvm, quite nice actually. Haha, more shows to come.

Ok la, more activities on the list! Friends, enjoy ur hols too!

I shall start to blog about my freedom first because I am afraid that tomoro I will not be onlining due to late papers and activities. Tomoro is a day which I, or all of my friends, long waited for. Because having swotting so hard and becoming nerdy, the GCE A Level Examination for some people in my class will ends tomoro evening at 17.15 pm. Was great actually as at last, I can breathe some air and everything will be damn fine. But it only exists for the next four months or so, because of the releasing of results, in which I have to choose a path depending on the grades on the script of paper. Well, coming back, last paper for tomoro, economics paper 2 and paper 1.

First coming to JJ, I am grateful for having entering into such a friendly environment for studying and playing. Especially my class, 05S22, you guys rocks my life. I would say that this portion of my life, is the most important and memorable. Apart from the real stress I got from this journey, I am grateful for having making such a great achievement in my life, in which I cannot attain it without having wonderful teachers, inspiring and cheerful friends. I remember the first day I stepped into JJ, it was just like something that happened yesterday. With one blink, I have to end this journey tomoro. I remember clearly in my memory, I failed my examination throughout my whole JC life. Every class tests or lecture tests, I failed to do well. I failed badly for my maths, failed badly for my economics, failed badly for my chinese A. I have never passed. My result slip will always filled with Os! Life during that period of time is just like a crippled person, and I felt myself is just an useless bum. Maybe is because I never work hard enough? But I know I am very lost. Everyone seems losing hope on me. I persisted on. However, I nearly wanna end my JC life and going to other path. I am grateful to my dad too, for making the wisest decision in my life – that is to continue my JC education.

In year 2006, I decided to change. You can look back to my entries back then, was rather a great turn for me to change and move on. I told myself, I must move on. I learnt discipline in this two years, not only to discipline myself on my doings and character, but also how to manage and discipline in my studies. Although, I hate myself for disappearing from lessons, but this is over. These two years, I learnt to be self motivated, accompanied with my friends and classmates, I learnt to swot hard. Even the darkest period of time, it will be over after sometime, and I will see the rainbow. Although, these few months, preparing well for the examination, I shall say its rather tough. I know, I am a much stronger rite now, learn to move on and on, without giving up. I told myself again and again, and this somehow seems effective. The slightest improvement is the greatest achivement for me. The first time I passed my Mathematics, the first time I passed my Chinese Literature, the first time I passed my Economics. Nothing in this world is definite. In the start, I find difficulties in achieving those goals. With teachers encouragements, with friends accompany, I swot hard, and I really passed all in my preliminary examination, which was just a few months back. Througout this period, I tend to fail, it hurts, I cried. These two years, I learnt to console myself for falling down every moment. I really learnt alot. I think whatever the outcome will be, whether I am able to enter the university, may not be as important afterall. But I really just hope, all the effort that has pumped in, won go into the drain. The process everything makes me think. Thanks for all people who has came into my life, leading me the way, and make me fly. You guys raise me up to more than what I can be. I really do not know what to say other than thanks. I iwill miss the days going into classes for tutorials, going into lecture hall for lectures, heading to canteen for lunch, mugging together after school, laughing and smiling together all the way. May we put this memories into our mind, remember it well, and move on to achieve the future. 18 more hours, after my paper two, I will officially end my JC life with a full stop, carrying with me the best memories and dive into the real future of ours! Swot hard for the last papers! Also, I will remember, what Ms Huang told me,

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And I also found out a verse by myself:

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Back with some updates on the Mathematics Paper 2 for GCE A Level Examination 2006. Anyways, I found out that a solid 38 marks was gone for paper 1 due to my SILLY stupid careless mistakes. Which means, securing a C might sound well but securing an A will be rather difficult already. But still got the other 50 percent chances of getting the A. Anyways, this afternoon at 2 pm, Paper 2 for Mathematics. Rather alright I shall say, unable to do one part, 4 marks gone. Found some mistakes in the pure maths section, okay, not much anyways. I am able to afford a lost of 20 marks so as to secure an A or a B for Maths. But also, have to look into the moderation part, where how the whole cohort did. But after some minor reseaches, I found out that most people said that paper 1 was alright and lose marks due to careless mistakes. So, I am sure that when both papers added up, everyone will be moderated and move up accordingly ba. My grade will always depends on Moderation, not my skills. Hah!

Well well, what is done have been done, no use “dwelling” onto the past yeah. Move on for the remaining papers. Are you all willing to clap for me, having know that I have my last subject and everything will end in 6 days! Woohoo~ After which, everything will be damn shiok till march. Haha. 15 November, here I come! Jia you everyone for Economics paper, we will tackle it together as one. “Promote as One, Graduate as One”! Jia you:)

Came here straight after the Mathematics Paper 1, I shall use four letter word to describe what I did, I “SHIT” on it actually. Counted in and out, 28 – 30 solid marks gone, plus minus, depending on how the marker marks. Yesh, you can say, you still held a solid 70 marks, which is an A and moderation everything etc etc, but I am afraid, the moderation and careless mistakes that I have not taken note of, everything will pull me down to like below what I expect. What should I do? I hope that the grade will not be that bad, just hope that the whole cohort will move UP together through moderation, and hope that when I got the results on next year’s February, totalled up, hope to be able to enter the Business Faculty in NTU. I really hope to go in there, I just wanna be there and whatever it gonna be, just grant a me place there, and thats more than enough! Well, Mathematics as a whole is not a gone case yet, I believed. Haha, because I love Probability and Statistics very much, and I must deal with the problem of careless mistakes! I still got a 50 percent chance to aim for the A, in which I just need 17 marks compared to prelims. Jia you jia you for MATHEMATICS PAPER 2 on Thursday! Everyone, mug hard and smart for the remainings.

I really hope that I can continue my studies, because, if I failed to do so, I might not be on my education path anymore. Please, everyone, god, MOE, Cambridge, Please, dont be too cruel. I am stress.

Of course, nothing is fun for this particular period because the GCE A Level Examination has started on 2nd November 2006 for us. Oh my god, and here are some of the feedbacks and where I can release my disappointment and stress.

I am rather exhausted now after two lauguage papers. It was damn bad actually. For General Paper first. For Paper 1, I am happy that the question that I can do came out, and it was quite smooth. But for that Paper 2, where it is a killer paper, of course kena killed. I have nothing to say about it but it is hard. Making me quite disappointed in way that I really have no motivation to continue. After that paper itself, I was trying to memorise for Chinese A Literature, it was damn bad, donno why, maybe because I am too tired, and maybe sad and stressed. Till evening, I really cannot continue, so I went home to sleep for about one hour, tears somehow came out, I also donno why, but the feeling is very very bad. But after that so called rest, I am able to regain the energy to charge and move on.

For today, basically is a whole day chinese A Marathon Examination, early in the morning till 5 plus. Damn tired and wanna die soon. But the papers for Chinese A was rather bad. For the composition, it was like no good question to answer for, and the question that I wrote was like somehow out of point, hope not…haha, for paper 1 part 2, was also bad…just because I cannot predict how well I did. BUT anyway, the last paper for today was the Chinese Literature paper, damn that paper, damn that questions. The first three parts were okay, maybe can secure the 40 marks well, the “Long answer questions” section was half good and bad. A total of three questions to answer. I chose 1 2 3. Was damn tricky actually, question 1 was alright, in which there is no mistake. But for question two, it somehow answer in a wrong way. But I asked Huang, she said as long as got the content can le….hope so, and for the last question, the first part 5 marks should be okay, but for the second part of 15 marks, I think I have lost tonnes of it. I just hoped to pass this question with what I wrote for the examiners. I really hope to do well, but the feeling is like, everything hasnt been smooth and successful. It is just like becoming bad to worst. Haix, maybe I am not fated to enter the University, and this is something that I should face. Well, what can I do now is to pray hard, hope everythings’ fine, and hope that all these bad feelings of mine now will be a wrong signal…and continue to work hard for the remaining papers. Pray hard and cross fing.

May god be with us, luck by our side, and continue to swot hard. I told myself again and again, everything will be over very soon, bear with it. Perhaps, I should even make sure that all my notes are well kept, so as to get ready for me to retain next year if I gonna flunk badly. Hope not. Jia you everyone, as long as we believe, I believe everything will be fine…we will all successfully enter the Uni, and hope that the Ministry of Education of Singapore will not be too cruel to retain us, hope so.