Alas, the period of examination craze and madness has officially ended with a big fullstop, at least for the moment (before the release of results). Afterall that will be something to worry about after July. I am tired of it and sick of it. Now, I can smell air that is fresh and free. However, just do not know why, after the exams, I am not feeling the way I used to be anymore. After exam, I should be hyper-happy, smiling and laughing like a crazy person. But then, this isnt the case. There seems to be loads of things for me worried about. I really do not know how to explain the feelings, but its just so so unstable.

Seems like, I have lost contact with. She kept running away, she kept turning away from the reality. I continue to chase, and I continue to make her face it. But this is not the way it should be, for me to do this and that, because afterall, I will be posited in a situation that I am “mad”. And every moment, it really makes me so bad. Its suffocating me. I tried to turn away too, I tried to run away too, but the feelings just get so intense and worst. The pictures of her just keep flying into my mind, like a “slideshow” and seriously. I do not know what had happened to me, but its really not me. What I needed was just a simple answer. Although, I reall know its a difficult choice to make, still, I wish to know what she is thinking. You keep running and running, I really do not know what to do next. Holding the phone next to me, should I text you? I am thinking, I should not disturb you by not texting you, then I say should I text you because I wanna text you, or should I say, I should text you because I need to text you. And what to text you and will you text back. And when you text back, will it be something that is answering to my previous text? Its turning me crazy. Really crazy. I really do not know exactly what to do.

I wish I can be stronger, standing much firm, and of course should not allow this to affect my daily routine. But now, I think its just merely impossible for me to do so.  I really fell for you.