Every time when I walk along the street, I observe people. Whether that person is being alone, with boy/girl friend, with group of buddies or with family, my heart and mind will suddenly feel kinda emptiness.
These few days, was busy with school work and revision lectures. Today, I can say that I have officially completed all my UOL Revision lectures. And on top of that, I will not be going for the remaining local revisions because I am running out of time! Don come and tell me you need more than 24 hours per day, but to face the reality, its still 24 hours a day and its up to you to “maximise” your utility in this 24 hours. Seriously, I failed to do so as I haven been very efficient anyway. I wish I can work during the night, but I really cannot. When I wanna start to read my notes during night, everything just cannot go into my funny mind. Maybe, its the fact that I am old.
These few days, have been talking so much to a friend of mine. Everything happens for a reason. Nevertheless, whether how it turns out to be, it all because of your doings. We, as human, loves to indulge in something that we are trying to get. When its so near, you made it sounds so far. When its really far, you want it to become so near, and the whole process repeats it self. Whatever it gonna be, sometimes, we have to face reality, whether on how much you are unbearable with, the degree of mindset that you cannot give up, its still the fact that we have to face. However, we as human, again, loves to hang onto something, which is fruitless and impossible, which is pain and hurting, which makes you complaining and crying, what is the point afterall? Sometimes, it not always the case whereby everything works in your own way. We need to consider various things from different perspectives. We cannot always look front and without turning left and right, we cannot keep on walking without looking back for what we did. We need to analyse, need to re-think, need to make decisions with a rationale, and of course, make a clear cut act on something that you have decided. And true enough, you can continue to run, run as far as you can, run as fast as you can, and if you reach a big wall (hindrance), if you got the ability to run through that wall, then I can say that you are powerful. Sometimes, its just not about a game or about the results of winning or losing, and I meant winning or losing from different aspects. You never hang on to something because of that mindset. Never want a thing for the sake of wanting. You need to feel it, touch it, think for it, and of course, decide if you want it.
Just like when you go to a supermarket. And you went to the groceries and vegetables section. And for instance, you need tomatoes. And of course, there is a loads of tomatoes for you to choose from. You pick up one of them, very perfect from the others in the first sight, you did not check the other side and just put into your basket, simply because there is some other customer eyeing for that “perfect in the first sight” tomato. Walking off with that tomato, and you continue your shopping. Suddenly, after rounds of walking, you realised another side of the tomato is rotten. Oh shit, you know that you cannot make your nice dishes for tonight that you were supposingly to make with that tomato. However, you are thinking, “so lazy to walk back to the veg section to change” and “what if another customer still there?”, “I cannot give up on it”, and “I can still make use of another side of the tomato”. And now, you are in a juncture whereby you need to make a decision. To return and change or bring back home and use half of the rotten tomato? You can definitely bring it back, but definitely, you will sure get a serious diarrhoea lo. What for?! As if there is no more tomato in the supermarket for you to choose. Die die also want to bring back that rotten one side de tomato.
We make decisions in every point of our life. There are right and wrong ones. But one should never fail to realise the wrong ones and face the reality. Instead, we should face it up straight and dare to correct it.
One more serious so called “phenomenon” that seriously is hitting the generation. I can say that, in the society, there are millions of people with different thinking, different mindset and different values. One word, “Popularity”. Everyone of us, being human, will try to be as outstanding as possible. True enough, this is not wrong due to competitive environment. You can apply in education, work and other aspects. But imagine, you are trying to be popular because you got a lot of “proposers”? You count, calculate and make it into a testimonial to show it in the hall of fame. You think that its normal, its right or its nothing weird. But that is seriously not correct to do. Have you ever evaluate, what for doing this? You make use of something alive as your puppet, as your toy and as your tool. Just like a formula, you plug in all the “variables” and calculate the output. And you aim for as high as possible because this shows your popularity, your attractiveness and your so called “aura”. I can tell you this is BULLSHIT! Hey wake up people! If you attempted to do this, I think your value afterall, is nothing but a zero. Just because of this, you make yourself into something worthless. By right, one should be humble in everything we do. We can in search for what we want, but we should never portrait to people how much “value” you are worth. You treat yourself as what? As an antique waiting people to auction it home? I rather be something normal, no value, but full of meaning and being treasured by some one. Isnt it better? I am not here to really comment, but I just point out what is really wrong. Yeap, this is in my perspective, I know that I should not use my ruler to measure others, but this is not right afterall.
Talking about “never use your own ruler to measure others”, I would like to talk about something. Every single individual, whether you are in a pursuit for something or someone, there always a way you think to do the things. Some ways, maybe to another party, is pleasurable, but to someone, is totally a turn off. Yes, we have to say that, you have your own preference. When its in your style, you love it. When its not, you opinion-ed it like nobody’s business. But one must really know, you never try, you never know, unless you try, then you will know. Famous Malay saying “Belum Try Belum Tau, Sekali Try, Hari Hari Mau!”.
Whether we like the opposite or not, we should never put it in a very negative extreme. Simply because there is two sides of the equation, its not always the extreme answers that will lead to a status quo.
We are all human. We are all friends. If we cannot be something more than a friends, then we can still be friends. But one thing that should place well in mind, is that we should not negatively comment someone who is not your “something more than a friend”. Because afterall, we are still friends. I once felt nothing, but today, I feel something. Is that, it really hurts for the other party.
I just do not understand, why we must complicate the very simplest things around us.
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Yesterday, suddenly went back to Malaysia to join my family for dinner and came back this morning for lecture. Although its very rush and tiring, but everything is worth it afterall. I had a great dinner with them, great shopping with them and great chat and updates with them. You know, I really feel so touched with the little things they did for me and so on. Whenever I am in the wrong, which I really in the wrong side, they will still tolerate and forgive me. This morning, they supposingly can sleep till late, but because I need to travel to Singapore early, they woke up and drove me to the bus station. You know, I really treasure those little things. Just love them so much.
总之, 在大风大浪的人生中, 不管遇到什么际遇, 最幸福又最棒的感觉, 还是回到家里, 有家人陪伴的时候. 其余的, 都没那么重要了.
Anyway, to add on, our picture taken during K session at Jaybee…so fun!
We rocks!
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